Does making music feel trecherous?

Does making music sometimes feel treacherous? Do the thoughts, worries, and helpful directions like these distract you from actually listening and shaping phrases…

“How’s my intonation?” “Here comes that spot…” “Did I come in right?” “I need to get enough air here.” “Oh no, I feel like I can’t control my fingers.” “I’ve got to play this just like…” “Wait, was that the right note?” etc…

Thoughts like these can paralyze a performer.

The question is, how can we transition from distraction to being in the process of music-making?

I recommend starting by identifying ‘why’ you make music. In my previous post, The Limitations of Fear, I invited you to look within yourself for your ‘why.'

I play flute because: 1. It is an amazing and beautiful movement practice with the byproduct of sound. 2. I love experimenting with sound and the cool changes I can elicit. 3. Music has the power to convey feelings, including joy and playfulness.

When it’s time for performance, these three things need to be top of my mind. This does not mean I don’t feel nervous. Instead, my nerves are part of my experience rather than dominating my experience.

In Jim Murphy’s book, Inner Excellence, he offers, “In your quest for success, the ultimate triumph is to be your true self — the best part of you, fearless and fully present, constantly seeking to learn and grow and to help others do the same.”

This brings up another interesting question: “How do you define success?” Is it external validation, or does it come from within, your reason for making music? Each person’s definition will be unique, just as we are all unique humans.

I honestly think I chose to study flute initally because of the external validation I received, until one day I didn’t. That was a slippery slope for me. Thankfully, we all have options.

Dive into your why! I would love to hear what you find. Articulating it is a big step in getting away from the need for external validation and into authenticity.

Be curious…

P.S. I highly recommend Jim Murphy’s excellent book!